Spectacular morning mist? …I thought so too, until I walked around while talking to my mom on the phone for about 10 minutes and she told me it’s volcanic ash from Chile that got blown to Australia. Hwaachk~started coughing~

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The life of mashimaro now is fully dedicated to work, eat, rest, and hang out with mashimaro’s friends. Recently got a dog at home

So white and fluffy and cute!!! ^_^

Her name is Muffin, she belongs to my housemate’s close friend Amanda, and we’re just dog-sitting her for 2 weeks. My housemate Cherie looks after her. I just observe. I am afraid of dogs, now slowly learning how to coexist with this one in close proximity.

She is very cute wor…

Her sleeping in her puffy little bed…

When she doesn’t get what she wants and feels damn sien

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Heehee!! Muffin ~ <3 so cute…

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I am looking for a new housemate… Cherie is moving out in August.. don’t know if can get anyone tho… Well~ hopefully everything turns out ok ^^

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This year so far has been quite tumultuous for my friends… maybe the challenges will make them stronger… after all, they are some of the toughest people I know… ^^

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Sometimes I think of a brilliant idea and want to express it all here… but I forget… So many instances came and went, and till today I have put nothing down… just that… it’s been so long since I’ve written a proper thing.. an essay or journal or whatever.. these days we are reduced to just a one-liner or two in twitter or fb.. and just share and like whatever for lightning-speed convenience… Once offline, the things we do are no longer recorded, formatted, uploaded… Many moments just pass by in my head… I have forgotten so many… now that I am finally sitting here, ready for bed early for the first time in months, it’s just frustrating that I don’t know what to type anymore.. haha… complain xuang…

 

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I love how we Malaysians mix our languages freely in our speech… it’s just liberating to talk in a less formal way.. like this oni fun mah…

Of course the recent happening in Malaysia and for Malaysians around the world – Bersih 2.0 – is deeply impacting … err… facebook feeds… and stirring up a sense of patriotism in young voters… Haih.. don’t wanna sound boring .. plus the fact that so many others have already put their two cents’ worth in on the topic.. but I just want to say I do love my own country too.. I don’t want to leave Malaysian soil forever, won’t abandon my family and country

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… just that I’m currently working out what to do, while slowly gaining experience… I think my family’s plan for me is to come out and start earning money.. start working hard… My friends are planning to travel around… experience the world… What is my own dream?

I see how viciously Luffy and his crew fight, battle after battle just to chase their precious dreams, save their precious nakama, gloriously portraying the belief in good triumphing evil and living life to the fullest… That’s just one anime from Japan and every day we try to share inspiring stories, music, shows, quotes, to feel better about life, about ourselves, to encourage others…

But what good can I do? … What am I born into this world for? … Why has my childhood been so perfect? … I must’ve done something good in my past life.. So just wondering now how can I repay my family, my friends for all their kindness and support… And what more can I do…

 

I am trained to be an architect. I do dream to build nice houses for people, nice schools, museums, offices, .. I do find excitement in design… oh but the industry is such a evil bastard… we just harvest the resources from the environment, pollute while building, pollute after building, everything costs millions, demolition also destroys the environment… efforts on building sustainability is nowhere near enough…

and i even feel bad for helping out in producing really BAD feng shui designs… i can’t prove it, but i believe in those taboo… i’ve not only read the books but also heard true stories of family lives turning bad after moving in or renovating… haha… ki siao right.. maybe it’s all just psychology…

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sometimes i lose the ability to enjoy myself. i turn into a lousy sourpuss and refuse to do silly things…

sometimes i rather not talk to anyone at all… it’s been weeks and weeks since i last ate lunch with anyone.. i purposely wait until 2pm when everyone’s eaten, then i walk down to the office kitchen… it’s just… lazyness… to think of topics and start a conversation, it’s not as easy as ABC for me…it’s more like PQRS WXYZ…

sometimes i remember how coldly i’ve treated my own grandfather in the months before he died from cancer.. and i feel like strangling myself for not being human… o____0 past mistakes cannot be undone!!!

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there was a night when i laid for 3 hours wide awake being unable to sleep…

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ah, but my worries might just be as small as a hair on someone else’s body. my stories are always never extreme, never dramatic, never exciting… I once told my deepest, darkest secret to a close friend, and all his reaction was, cheh, he thought I had something juicy to share about someone else. I felt slightly insulted, after all, even my most ‘extreme’ piece of news is boring to him. hahaha.. well.. some might envy my peaceful life… hehehe… anyway I’m glad… ^_^

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another friend asked me recently if I’ve ever thought of my guy friends as … errr… men. hahaha…. that’s weird at first… well yeah.. long ago… just that they’re unavailable.. hahhaa… it doesn’t matter anyway… im in no hurry… i don’t believe in forcing things to happen myself.. it’ll only end up in disaster… haha…

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omg! luxury sleeping time has been reduced another half an hour due to this stupid blog post!! my friends will surely scold .. haha… walao, got time to sleep don’t want to sleep, post donno what long and very sien blog post here… hahaha…

take care my friends… ^_^ gambateh!!!

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